what is deciding or choosing

this question has been coming to me for me to inquire into. when I think I should be able to decide or if some one says oh that person made the right decision, it has not ever made sence to me and now I beginning to see. no one is deciding any thing, it is all happening through us, the only thing that believes it is deciding is the me,the thought, the one that wants credit so it can be a someone! I see this today more clearly than before, I have seen my ways of needing to get credit to be a someone and they still live here. What I am finding from experience is, when I leave every thing as it is some thing comes through me and it is some thing that will serve the whole, not just me. When I push through things with a need for me, it dose not serve the whole and I go all over the place till I surrender and then here I am shown that it happens through me, I am not the one making decisions, I am the whole living open ready to be used for the one. I have spent a long time thinking I have made some bad choices in my life, believing that if I had of done it differently it would have...... So not true, it is all happening for me and the way it happens is an ongoing invitation to wake up to realise that I am not the one in charge. x m

worlds with in worlds

this is some thing I can see more clearly now, worlds within worlds. I live in a world created by my thoughts, I project this world into the field, this then looks like a me, Mackayla, I think I am this world, funny story hey! I sit with friends and family and meet there worlds and the time that our worlds meet are when we energetically resonate, when our worlds meet from thought it is just two movies running at the same time. when it is from resonance it one energetic field, words are not the dominant, love it...... 

I am not inclined to.....

hello all, I am finding this way of being that is new to me, where once I would say no and start to justify my no or yes and wish I did not say Yes. Now I am finding this deeper truth and able to say it. What is helping me with this is to listen to my body, the sensation in my body are alerting me to a more true way of being. It contracts when I am about to engage in a habitual way of being and when I listen to this and feel it and pause, then some other ways present them selves. The simple thing is I am finding that I simply am not inclined to go down the habitual path any more. I am finally understanding what the contraction was given for, for me to listen and find the truth for me, for years I thought I had stuck energy that needed healing and all of that mental me story. Now I stop listen, feel and get the deeper truth so i can be more authentic in all of my relating. gratitude for this seeing. love all x m

beautiful day with beautiful people

This life is such a gift, i feel so blessed to be where i am now, we spent the day with some sweet people, sharing our worlds. I am so grateful for being with my darling Robert, I love sharing my days with him in the very simple ways that we do.
I have a friend that has written a song and he sent it to me today to listen to and it was so beautiful, so much heart and feeling in it. He is a creative being that is sharing his gift and I love that he is doing this, one thing we can do in this life is share our gifts in what ever way it flows. love mackayla

a new way of being

hello all, this is a new way of being for me right now, a beautiful friend suggested I blog and this was a foreign this to me so I ask him to guide me on this. Here I am now in blog world, I love the worlds with in worlds and this one is fascinating as I have no idea of how it works and who I am blogging to?
I love having no idea actually, more and more I see how liberating it is to not know and not need to know.
Totally in contrast to how I have been educated to be, if I did not know when I was younger I would then spend so much time on believing I was stupid and then believe this about myself as a set identity. Not any more, I am not this idea of myself, phew what a relief.
enjoy this day and share some more when I turn up in this blog world again. x m